We all have things about us that maybe a lot of others don’t know. Maybe a few things, maybe many. One of mine is this….if I have an abundance of things going on in my life at once, so many activities, responsibilities and just extra things on top of the normal stuff (add in emotions and the holidays)….and ya, I start to get paralyzed by it all, not sure where to start, and maybe feel a little crazy on the inside. (That’s where I like to keep it so I don’t wave it around at everyone else that’s not in my family haha!)
And I can definitely laugh about it at times because sometimes it’s funny and you just need to find humor in it. But other times, it’s not. When you’re sitting at home looking around at all the things you feel you need to do, or mentally trying to check them all off. It’s weighing on you, and you just want to run away from it, go back upstairs and not face it today. Right?
That’s just how I’ve been feeling this week. Tired, overwhelmed, and a little soul weary. And at times like these, I often have a hard time sorting through and expressing what I’m feeling. I read 2 different devotionals this morning and they both had something the Lord wanted to speak to my heart about.
Here’s a little portion from Streams in the Desert devotional this morning:
“We often pray to be delivered from calamities; we even trust that we shall be; but we do not pray to be made what we should be, in the very presence of calamities; to live amid them, as long as they last, in the consciousness that we are held and sheltered by the Lord, and can therefore remain in the midst of them, so long as they continue, without any hurt.”
The other was a Proverbs 31 devotional written by Ann Voskamp for this morning. Here are some of the things that she wrote:
“Frankly, there are days I’d like to hide my scars and the jagged edges of my brokenness, days when I wish there were no marks to bear.”
Psalm 79:9 The Message- You’re famous for helping; God give us a break.
“Give us a break, God, in the midst of overwhelming stress and the pounding of the waves, the storms of life.”
“When you’re hit by the breaking waves, break deep.”
Ann Voskamp writes that when the breaking waves hit, we have 3 options:
*”Let fear make you run hard…”
*”Fall back on your own pride…”
*”Or break deep….break deep into that breaking wave and let yourself be moved by the Living Water and transformed and formed by Christ….The only way through the overwhelming waves is to break deep into the roiling water and dive into the depths and stretch out both arms through the fathoms and let yourself be made into the shape of a cross. Break deep. Break deep, and break free.”
Both of these resonated with me so much this morning. This is how I feel today. Whether it’s something big going on in my life or lots of small things that add up to something big, I want to learn how to break deep and break free. I want to remember that I can rest in the Lord today. That I am held by him and sheltered by him. That he has good plans and offers wisdom. That I can have his peace in every situation if only I will look to him to find it.
As I drove my 9 year old to his science class today, he suddenly remembered something from awhile back. “Mom, remember when I had to do my science speech in front of everyone? When I was walking into the building, I really wanted to cry, but I didn’t.”
“Mm hmm yep I remember. And then what happened when you actually did your speech?” I asked him.
“It wasn’t that bad.”
So true. And the perfect reminder for me today. I want to remember to just move forward. Even if it’s a little move. To not be paralyzed by fear or the unknown or just being overwhelmed. Usually the things that are looming over us never end up being as horrible to get through as we imagine. Just keep moving. It may not be moving forward in the time frame or way I hope or plan, but it’s still moving forward. And my God can carry me through.
Father God, thank you that with you there is peace, and freedom, and hope. You are here with us in the quiet, in the unknown, in the stresses of life. You know what we need. Help us to draw close to you as we move forward. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.
Psalm 91:1-2 He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.”
Psalm 130:5 I wait for the Lord, my soul waits, and in his word I put my hope.
Psalm 116:2 Because he bends down to listen, I will pray as long as I have breath!
Isaiah 40:10 Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be afraid, for I am your God. I will strengthen you; I will help you; I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.
Here is the link to the Proverbs 31 Devotional too: