Why Do I Wait So Long?

why-do-i-wait-so-longI’ve done it once again. Running, running, running myself ragged. Trying so very hard to get it all done. Feeling like I have to squeeze every minute out of the day to finish what’s in front of me.

Searching for things to give me energy, help me get things done, or make me feel a little less weary along the way. Believing I’m failing as I look around and nothing seems to get done anyway.

Wondering why I feel the way I do; anxious, frazzled, exhausted, agitated, fearful, burdened down and completely soul weary….

Psalm 42:5a Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me?

And then something in my spirit stirs and reminds me that there is only one place for my heart and mind to find rest. Remembering there in only One who knows my heart when no one else does, not even me.

Psalm 42:5b Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.

Searching for time and forcing myself to sit still for a few quiet moments to just be in his presence. Realizing this is the only place I really want to be, and then wishing I could stay so much longer.

Hearing his reassuring voice as he welcomes me back and speaks his loving truth into my spirit. Soaking in the peace, love, grace, joy, forgiveness that he offers so freely.

Hoping that it doesn’t take me so long next time to remember what my heart is really longing for.

James 4:8 Come near to God and he will come near to you.

Psalm 46:10 “Be still and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.”

Psalm 42:2 My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. When can I go and meet with God?

As The Deer – Hymn by Martin Nystrom

As the deer panteth for the water
So my soul longeth after Thee
You alone are my heart’s desire
And I long to worship Thee

You alone are my strength, my shield
To You alone may my spirit yield
You alone are my heart’s desire
And I long to worship Thee

You’re my Friend and You are my Brother
Even though You are my King
I love You more than any other
So much more than anything

I want You more than gold or silver
Only You can satisfy
You alone are the real joy giver
And the apple of my eye


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