You know those days when you have so many emotions rolling around in you, but no time to sift through them? Too tired to even start to unravel them? Yesterday was like that for me, so I just went to bed early. When I woke up, they were still there.
I was reading a devotional from Proverbs 31, and she was encouraging us to pray the way Hannah does in 1 Samuel.
1 Samuel 1:10 In her anguish Hannah prayed to the Lord and wept bitterly.
And then in verse 15 Hannah says, “I was pouring out my soul to the Lord.”
As I was reading through these verses, I felt a stirring to comply. I longed to pour out my own soul to the Lord, but this is what I journaled instead:
“Father God, I desire to pour out my soul before you but sometimes I don’t know where to begin. I know there is so much to say and so much that I feel but it seems so overwhelming just to start. Help me Lord.”
So then I just sat for awhile not knowing how to speak. And this is what the Lord brought to my mind next…
Flippin’ your fins you don’t get too far. Legs are required for jumpin’, dancin’. Strollin’ along down a – what’s that word again? Street.
Up where they walk, up where they run. Up where they stay all day in the sun. Wanderin’ free, wish I could be, part of that world.
Yep, a song from The Little Mermaid. I know it does seem strange. And I really didn’t know if I wanted to share it. But honestly, it’s not strange at all. Not to me. Not to God. He knows our quirks and he knows our depths. He knows our past, present and future. He knows how to relate to us, and he’s funny too.
As long as I can remember, music has moved me. It stirs something within me. Draws out my emotions and helps me express what I’m feeling when I can’t put it into words.
God knows that about me because he created it in me. And he knows why that song would help me to express what I was feeling and what he wanted to reveal to me through it. He helped me to pour out my soul to him through music, and then helped me move on to pouring it out through prayer.
He has created me to respond to him through music and through other things in his creation and I needed the reminder that he knows me so deeply this morning.
Just like he knows you. For you it might not be music. Maybe it’s cooking, drawing, speaking, dancing, teaching, gardening, or something else.
Our Heavenly Father is a creator and he has designed us to be like him. To be reminded of him through the way he has made us. To draw close to him when we remember his deep knowledge and love and care for us.
Eric Liddell, a Scottish athlete and missionary said this, “I believe God made me for a purpose, but he also made me fast! And when I run I feel his pleasure.”
Thank you God that you take pleasure in us and the way you have created us. Help us to take joy in drawing close to you through the things we do today. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.
Psalm 149:2-3 – Let Israel rejoice in their Maker; let the people of Zion be glad in their King. Let them praise his name with dancing and make music to him with tambourine and harp.
Colossians 3:23 – Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men.